If you find yourself in Hell, better keep moving and fast!

I haven't written anything for soo long... been sad and listless.. been imagining days gone past..on shopping sprees.. blowing few thousands in a day.. just for the fun of it.. on shopping and not seeing anything suitable but hey buying on the whim ...Ahhhh those were the days ....shopping... pampering ...facials.. masssages.. manicure .. pedicure ..and travelling to foreing lands ... mmmmm .. was I really happy those times?

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Life is Not so sweet today.Shoe-string budget...

Shoe-string budget...Shoe-string budget...Shoe-string budget...Shoe-string budget...Shoe-string budget...

Its killing me  .. Where is the light at the end of the tunnel?susahnya mo hidup camni ...

I need a better job, I need to work smarter and get more income ... :-(

Really am suffering with this shoe-string budget ...

Wishing for More Money to come my way

Pay day coming soon.... just sitting around in the office trying my very best to look busy so nobody will assigned me any task to do... hehehehe Just waiting for the pay to come.. counting my days .

SweetLife....

“Life is full of beauty. Notice it. Notice the bumble bee, the small child, and the smiling faces. Smell the rain, and feel the wind. Live your life to the fullest potential, and fight for your dreams.”

 Ashley Smith quotes

Long time ago , everyday I will pray to God to give me a Thankful Heart , a Patient Heart , a Humble Heart to get me thru the day, to survive the day ..  and I was feeling depressed most of the time because I just barely survive the days that I had had gone through previously...

I had an ephiphany  sometime back and Now  Everyday I Pray and I Thank God with all my being for always giving me Abundant Blessings everyday of my life since I can remember, I thank the Lord for giving me bountiful experiences in life.   I thank God for the Thankful Heart ,  the Humble Heart that he gave to me.. ... 

And I have never been happier  ... My life is soo sweeet now... La Dolce Vita!!!! and I'd be kicking myself and knocking my head ... during my pensive moments for never realising The Blessings that I have been given all along and never being Grateful and appreciative of....  

Yay... just submitted another case and waiting for my commision to be banked-in...  ;)  and  that will be used , to do some shopping for  formal work clothes that make me look like a professional working lady coz my boss offered me a juicy position and hoping to get  a pay rise.   

I never stopped Praying  to thank God for all the Sweetness in Life that God has bless me with .... Weieeeeee!! Life is Sweet!   What a wonderful Life..  and I have some serious shopping to do.mmmmm


May God Bless you my blog reader...


Cheers ,
Belle

Our search in Life..

What do people really want ? What do we keep on searching in Life? Why do we keep searching?


I guess people are searching to fill that void they feel in their life... what can fill up the void? The gaping bottomless pit of emptiness...The black hole..

Searching and searching.. we go far from our homes to work at a distant land to search ... we work night and day in the office to try and  fill up that void... hoping when we work the void will be filled up... and by then we have everything that we need , but no..

The Void just gets bigger and bigger and bigger and deeper and deeper and deeper, . and it eats our soul out , draining it... squeezing out the happiness, the life even the memories that once was contain in the spirit self, the soul...

Now aimless, numb limbs moving, walking , going to work and back and work and back, misery sets in depressions sets in, empty dead sockets for eyes never seeing the beauty all around, going to work at dawn, getting home at dawn.. darkness.. always darkness, heart in darkness, mind in darkness .. still searching trying to fill the empty void , but its getting stronger; the darkness the feeling of emptiness, no smiles, no beauty, no happiness, no sunny days..

Tried so hard to fight it but just too weak ,  pulled into the strong current of the empty void of blackness.. darkness,   being angry all the time, feeling of dark thoughts , wondering what life is all about , struggling to overcome the harsh realities of life... still searching .. and searching not knowing what one is searching for.....  when there is no work sleeep endless sleep is welcome ,,,, the bed and the dreamless sleep , still no rest is found .... the heart the soul the spirit is drying up.... nothing else to give, work becomes meaningless, daily life become meaningless as the search  is futile... What are each one of us searching for... ?

When the darkness is in us, enveloped by darkness, negativeness... anger, frustrations, regrets.. unfulfilled ambitions, searching and still searching in the darkness .... Looking at Happy People around .. wondering what is the big damn problem that they are having .. Why are these people always happy ... ?


.. getting the job done day in and day out.. feeling numbness ...  feeling the inevitible boredom , no light in sight no end to the bottomless pit.. that big gaping void.... now devoid of any life.. only daily routine, working day and nite, living the zombie life.. house in a mess, personal appearance in a mess, no colour in life just emptiness blackness.... The Empty Void...\\