Saturday 26 March 2011

Our search in Life..



What do people really want ? What do we keep on searching in Life? Why do we keep searching?


I guess people are searching to fill that void they feel in their life... what can fill up the void? The gaping bottomless pit of emptiness...The black hole..

Searching and searching.. we go far from our homes to work at a distant land to search ... we work night and day in the office to try and  fill up that void... hoping when we work the void will be filled up... and by then we have everything that we need , but no..

The Void just gets bigger and bigger and bigger and deeper and deeper and deeper, . and it eats our soul out , draining it... squeezing out the happiness, the life even the memories that once was contain in the spirit self, the soul...

Now aimless, numb limbs moving, walking , going to work and back and work and back, misery sets in depressions sets in, empty dead sockets for eyes never seeing the beauty all around, going to work at dawn, getting home at dawn.. darkness.. always darkness, heart in darkness, mind in darkness .. still searching trying to fill the empty void , but its getting stronger; the darkness the feeling of emptiness, no smiles, no beauty, no happiness, no sunny days..

Tried so hard to fight it but just too weak ,  pulled into the strong current of the empty void of blackness.. darkness,   being angry all the time, feeling of dark thoughts , wondering what life is all about , struggling to overcome the harsh realities of life... still searching .. and searching not knowing what one is searching for.....  when there is no work sleeep endless sleep is welcome ,,,, the bed and the dreamless sleep , still no rest is found .... the heart the soul the spirit is drying up.... nothing else to give, work becomes meaningless, daily life become meaningless as the search  is futile... What are each one of us searching for... ?

When the darkness is in us, enveloped by darkness, negativeness... anger, frustrations, regrets.. unfulfilled ambitions, searching and still searching in the darkness .... Looking at Happy People around .. wondering what is the big damn problem that they are having .. Why are these people always happy ... ?


.. getting the job done day in and day out.. feeling numbness ...  feeling the inevitible boredom , no light in sight no end to the bottomless pit.. that big gaping void.... now devoid of any life.. only daily routine, working day and nite, living the zombie life.. house in a mess, personal appearance in a mess, no colour in life just emptiness blackness.... The Empty Void...\\